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Wednesday, 4 March 2015

Healing a Broken Heart


I woke up this morning and something felt different.
A weird peace within that felt so calming, like a weight had been lifted off my chest and I could breathe again.
A Lifestyle blog post on healing a broken heart. From the bottom of the bottom the only way is up.
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If we take a few steps back…

I'd had great hopes for 2015.

I was so sure that after such an awful end to 2014, what with breaking up with my boyfriend after 7 years because he broke my heart, moving out of our home and essentially starting from scratch things could only get better, right?

Wrong.

On Valentine’s Day he got engaged.

I thought I knew what it meant to be heartbroken, at the bottom of the bottom - until Facebook greeted me with a shiny ring and two deliriously happy faces declaring their love for one another.

Earth shattering, soul destroying, emotionally draining, all-consuming news that left me feeling like a shell of who I was.

After a matter of months how was it possible for him to be in love with someone else, let alone engaged? I felt every emotion all at once, my body ached with sadness, my anxiety levels went through the roof and I threw up from the shock. I was so unbelievably furious, too. After so many years, all that love we'd built together and he didn’t even have the decency to tell me himself? My god I hate Facebook.

I questioned my self-worth. I mean if he didn’t want to marry me after all that time and chose her to be his wife after 5 fucking minutes, what did that say about me? About us?

And who the hell was he, now? The man I'd grown with, loved, cherished?

I don't know this man, I thought. This man is absolutely insane. 

It all felt a bit too dramatic really – this is the sort of crap that goes down in Eastenders, not real life. I spent weeks numb to the world, avoiding contact with anyone, I figured if I just ignored the situation it would go away.

I was flooded with messages from my friends, his friends, my family and I didn’t care what they had to say. The whole thing felt incredibly embarrassing, you know? I simply didn’t want everyone to know that we had failed and he had found someone else, someone he clearly held in a much higher regard. I wanted the world to swallow me up and spit me out as someone new.

Every day since has been a struggle. I’m tired, exhausted actually. Every person I encounter infuriates me and I’m wishing the day away so that I can go back to bed and think about him without any interruptions.

Until today.

I woke up this morning and something felt different.

A weird peace within that felt so calming, like a weight had been lifted off my chest and I could breathe again.

I realised that it’s down to me, no-one else, to move myself forward.

It's going to suck for the longest time. And my mind is going to go through all the scenarios and feel all the emotions over and over again.
I’ll never be able to forget and the feeling won’t ever go away completely – I truly believe something like this you carry with you forever, simply manifested in different ways.

But I can make it easier on myself, if I want to.

I can get up, play my favourite song, brush my hair, put on some mascara and my favourite top and maybe just those four simple things will help make the day a little better.

I can say yes to opportunities, not avoid them.

I can tell everyone I don’t want to talk about it anymore.

I can surround myself with positive people.

I can move forward.

I can heal the brokenness.

I can.

And I am.
A Lifestyle blog post on healing a broken heart. From the bottom of the bottom the only way is up.
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Wednesday, 25 February 2015

The February Blues: Fashion and Beauty Haul

Fashion and Style blogger Wonderful You shares this YouTube video of fashion and beauty bits.
Dear February,

You have been royally pants.

The worst of all the February's I've ever experienced.

So to combat that, I went shopping.

And spent all the money. 

Retail therapy is a temporary fix, but hey, every now and then its okay to splurge right? It certainly perked me up for a while :-)

So, with that being said I hope you enjoy seeing all the bits and bobs I've picked up, including some items from my favourite stores, & Other Stories, COS and Charlotte Tilbury! 

(PS. THREE WEEKS UNTIL BALI BABY, YES!)




Monday, 23 February 2015

Blunderful You

A personal style blog talking about making friends on the internet through the blogging community.
A personal style blog talking about making friends on the internet through the blogging community.
A personal style blog talking about making friends on the internet through the blogging community.
A personal style blog talking about making friends on the internet through the blogging community.
A personal style blog talking about making friends on the internet through the blogging community.
Jumper: & Other Stories. Jeans: ASOS. Boots: Daniel Footwear. Coat: ASOS (similar here). Backpack: ASOS (similar here). Necklace: Vintage.
A couple of weekends ago I drove up to Birmingham. It's my place, you know? Great shops, food and more food.
Where I live, the shops are beyond disgraceful and being just under an hour away in the car, I'll find myself there on the regular.

This particular weekend was a little different though, I went to meet Ally for the first time.

Ally writes over at Ally in Blunderland and from our casual tweets I kinda just knew we'd get on well.
So when she asked if I might fancy a coffee I said yes. Because, I did. I did fancy a coffee with her.

Saturday rolled around and I didn’t even really feel nervous to meet a total stranger for the first time.
It was a funny one, because unlike other internet friends I’ve made *creepy internet weirdo alert*, we hadn’t spoken all that much, really – we were pretty much going in cold. That probably should've been scary, right?

It wasn't.

She helped me pick my first ever pair of trainers (because she's cool FYI) and laughed at me whilst I tried on backpacks for Bali. She explained how Benefits Hello Flawless Foundation is the best thing since sliced bread and then we ate, ALL the food.

I'd suggested Ekachai - my absolute favourite South East Asian restaurant housed in Selfridges food quarter - purely for it's completely incredible Crispy Duck Salad...best ever in the world, in case you were wondering. (Ally agrees)

And it was just the loveliest of days, that made me so very grateful to the blogging world. For introducing such a wonderful person to my life.

That's my favourite thing about blogging. That I've made the best friends through this community.

Ally is totally brilliant, witty, intelligent and not to mention a little easy on the eye, fellas. And simply saying yes to a coffee, means I've gained another wonderful friend.

She took these snaps for me too, 'cause she's good like that. And it turns out that these Daniel Footwear boots are the comfiest platforms I've ever had the pleasure of feet-meeting. And that opting for pastels in my wardrobe sometimes is okay.

Here's to many more Crispy Duck Salads, Ally. I suppose you're sort of alright..kind of.

Shop my look here:



Monday, 16 February 2015

An Everyday Make-up Routine

A YouTube tutorial of an Everyday Make-up Routine
It's been a pretty long time since I last published a daily makeup routine on my YouTube channel. I have to admit they're probably my least favourite to film...When it comes to make-up I'm pretty awful - as in, I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I simply wing it (pun intended, oh Megs - you're so hilarious) and hope for the best.

Regardless, it's something I'll get asked to film fairly frequently - probably so you can all have a bit of a laugh at my face on a weekday evening. Whatever gets you through the week, ladies and gents!
;-)

So here it is, my latest made-up face! Enjoy...

You can find all the products I used linked below!

MAKE-UP USED:
Illamasqua Hydra Veil Primer: http://fave.co/1E0rAzE
Rodial Instaglam Retouch: http://bit.ly/1FykT98
RT Expert Face Brush: http://fave.co/1AXmGWq
Antipodes Mineral Foundation: http://fave.co/1zPjo6U
Antipodes Kabuki: http://fave.co/1E0qFPM
NARS Radiant Creamy Concealer: http://fave.co/1AXm8j5
Avon Warm Glow Bronzer: http://fave.co/1E0q7cD
RT Powder Brush: http://fave.co/1E0qELs
MeMeMe Cosmetics Blush Me Blusher: http://fave.co/1E0q8gG
RT Blush Brush: http://fave.co/1AXmExx
Antipodes Translucent Powder: http://fave.co/1E0qsMf
Soap & Glory Archery Pencil: http://fave.co/1AXmExv
Rimmel Brow This Way: http://fave.co/1AXn2fJ
Helen E Cosmetics Eyeshadow Sunset Gold: http://bit.ly/1lHVhh9
MAC Woodwinked Eyeshadow: http://fave.co/1E0ubJX
Crownbrush All Eyes on You Set: http://bit.ly/1McBrb6
Avon EverLasting Eyeliner: http://fave.co/1E0z0CV
Vintage Cosmetics Company Eyelash Curlers: http://fave.co/1E0z7OR
Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara: http://fave.co/1qebcJC
MAC Soft & Gentle: http://fave.co/1AXzJqH
RT Contour Brush: http://fave.co/1AXzXy6
Illamasqua Lip Liquid: http://fave.co/1Ag6Cyy


Thursday, 12 February 2015

#CookingWithMegs: Roast Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup

A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
A bloggers recipe for Abel and Cole's Superb Soup Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup #CookingWithMegs
Before I start I would like to say how much respect I have for the foody bloggers out there. Cooking and photographing at the same time is really bloody hard. It took me ages – I even contemplated a nap half way through the process. Hats off to you, ladies and gents.

That being said, since 2015 rolled around I’ve tried to introduce my body to a healthier lifestyle - and a huge part of that has been Abel and Cole. A purely organic, locally sourced fruit, meat and veg supplier who deliver boxes of goodness to your doorstep on a weekly basis. My delivery driver, Bryan (yeah you heard me right, you have the same driver every week!) delivers me a Superb Souping Box which contains 3 recipes worth of ingredients (including seasoning) to rustle up a weeks’ worth of lunches, aka. soups. To say it’s the highlight of my Tuesday wouldn’t be a lie and I’m not ashamed that my life now heavily relies on happiness in vegetable form. For £12.50 a box it's great value for money and you can choose how often you'd like it delivered - be it weekly like me or perhaps fortnightly. Affordable and good for you don't usually sit in the same sentence, but Abel and Cole have it going on.

So...I thought it would be quite nice to share a few recipes here and there – I’m absolutely no domestic goddess, cooking is not second nature to me, so these posts will mainly be here just to show how simple, quick and easy it can be to make your own (really frickin’ good) food.

Today? We’re making Roast Butternut Squash and Cardamom Soup.

You'll need:

Ingredients:
2 Small Squash
1 Can of Coconut Milk
150ml of water / stock
1 Lime – Juice and Zest
1 Bulb of Garlic
3 Cardamom seeds
Dash of Olive Oil
Pinch of Salt and Pepper
Oven 190 degrees

And here's how you make it:

Take the tops and bottoms off your squash and cut each in to quarters, scoop out the seeds and put them to one side.

Next grab your garlic, peel off the papery layer and using a sharp knife chop about 1cm off the pointed end. Pop both the squash and the garlic on a baking tray, season with salt and pepper and a dash of olive oil.

Place in the oven for 30 minutes at 200 degrees/Gas mark 6.

Whilst those babies are cooking grab your cardamom pods, bash them with the bottom of your knife and release the little seeds. Use a pestle and mortar (if you have one) or like me, the bottom of a glass to crush the seeds in to a powdery form - then slice your lime.

Wash up what you can whilst you’re waiting and then grab your garlic out of the oven – it should be soft to the touch. Leave it on the side to cool slightly and put the squash back in until it’s super squidgy (it shouldn’t need more than an extra 20 minutes).

Using a spoon, scoop out the squash from its skin. Now, this is the point where if you have one you can chuck everything in a blender - mine broke, so I’m going for a big pot and a hand held blender stick!

Once you’ve done that pour in your coconut milk (don’t worry if it’s slightly solidified, it will break down really easily), your crushed cardamom and lime juice. Blend until smooth then add in your water/stock – I used vegetable stock in mine. Blend it all up again and hey presto – YOU’RE DONE! Make sure you give it a little taste and add extra seasoning if you need it, perhaps another cardamom pod if needs be.

It makes me 3 really generous portions and tastes SO good.

If you give this recipe a whirl, share your snaps using #CookingWithMegs on social channels – I’d love to see your results!

Also - If you're interested in finding out more about Abel and Cole you can visit their website here and you can also follow this link to view the Superb Souping Box I have delivered weekly!

I'd love to know your thoughts on this type of post from me and whether it's something you'd like to see more regularly? :-)

Happy Souping!

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